| Age | Sources and Pages | Code Number | Quotations | Relevant Key Words, Phrases and Their Code Numbers |
|---|---|---|---|---|
| 17~18 | SS 172 -173. |
32-17-1 | …All this, however, does not prevent both distractions and sleepiness from visiting me, but at the end of the thanksgiving when I see that I've made it so badly I make a resolution to be thankful all through the rest of the day. You see, dear Mother, that I am far from being on the way of fear; I always find a way of being happy and of profiting from my miseries; no doubt this does not displease Jesus since He seems to encourage me on this road. Contrary to my usual state of mind, one day I was a little disturbed when going to Communion; it seemed to me that God was not satisfied with me and I said to myself: Ah! if I receive only half a host today, this will cause me great sorrow, and I shall believe that Jesus comes regretfully into my heart. I approached, and oh, what joy! For the first time in my life I saw the priest take two hosts which were well separated from each other and place them on my tongue! You can understand my joy and the sweet tears of consolation I shed when beholding a mercy so great! |
2-17-2 (Sufferings, Sacrifices, Crosses, Trials), 18-17-1 (Holy Communion), 23-17-1 (The Joy of Sufferings), 24-17-3 (Mercy of God, Graces), 29-17-1 (Consolation) |
| 24 | LC 48, From May 21 to 26. |
32-24-1 | 11. “I was a little sad this morning, wondering whether God was really pleased with me. I was thinking of what each Sister would say about me, if she were questioned. One would say: ‘She is a good little soul.’ Another: ‘She is very gentle, very pious, but…’ And still other would have different ideas; several would find me very imperfect, which is true…. As for my little Mother, she love me so much that this blinds her, and so I can't believe her. Oh! what God thinks, who will tell me? I was in these reflections when your little note reached me. You were telling me that everything in me pleased you, that I was especially loved by God, that He had not made me, as He did others, climb the rough ladder of perfection, but that he had placed me in an elevator so that I might be brought to Him more speedily. Already, I was much touched, but always the thought that your love made you see what wasn't there hindered me from rejoicing fully. Then I took my little Gospels, asking God to console me, to answer me Himself, and my glance fell upon this passage which I'd never noticed before: ‘For he whom God sent speaks the words of God, for not by measure does God give the Spirit.’(John 3:34) Oh! then I shed tears of joy, and this morning, when awakening, I was still filled with joy. It is you, little Mother, whom God has sent for me; it is you who brought me up, who had me enter Carmel. All the great graces for my life I have received through you. You speak the same words as God, and now I believe that God is very much content with me since you have said so.” |
24-24-14 (Mercy of God, Graces), 39-24-3 (Pauline) |